It's been a year and a day since I started blogging! I meant to blog at some point yesterday, but good ol' life prevented me from doing so. Literally, I had no time yesterday. Here's the run down of what a typical Wednesday looks like for me as an OCC student: Class at 7 (yes, in the morning!), class at 8, class at 9, class at 10, class at 1125, just enough time to eat lunch before the freshmen small group leaders meet at 1240 (we only do this once a month, but conveniently we met yesterday), class at 130, leave at 3 for church, return from church at 830, work 9-12. Whew. Conveniently, my job requires little to no labor (I work in the Student Center on-campus), so I normally spend most of my time doing homework when I'm not selling coffee to the huge crowd of about 2 people.
My Wednesdays would like to formally apologize for having my one year blog anniversery on one of it's most gruesome and tiring and busy days.
As I was anticipating this momentous day (that which was yesterday), I pondered what I could possibly write about. My good friend, and part influencer to this blog, Charlie, suggested I write about the things I've learned in this past year. So as I thought back to 365 days ago, I began to realize how much 2009 really stunk. I'd hate to say that I remember more not-so-good memories versus the good ones.
However, since I got the devotional book my mom sent me, I've found more comfort in God through all those not-so-good times. But I kept asking, "God, when is it gonna' get better?!" And as I so miraculously found time to go through yesterday's devotion, God told me this:
"Give up the illusion that you deserve a problem-free life. Part of you is still hungering for the resolution of all difficulties. This is a false hope! As I told My disciples, in the world you will have trouble. Link your hope not to problem solving in this life but to the promise of an eternity of problem-free life in heaven. Instead of seeking perfection in this fallen world, pour your energy into seeking Me: The Perfect One...I am much less interested in right circumstances than in right responses to whatever comes your way."
I then turned to John 16:33, which says this: "I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world!" (italics added)
I finally got it. Before, I was just seeking God and trusting him when those not-so-good times began to taunt me. I asked him to make things better, to take the pain away, to make the sun shine with pots of gold at the end of the rainbow and unicorns prancing around. And God said, "NO! You will have troubles! You can't just seek me when life sucks. You can't just trust me when hard times come your way. You have to prepare for an on-going battle! When you are trusting me in preparation for the hard times is when you find that you are trusting me at all times! This is what I want from you: consistent trust! I am not a part-time God. I am always here so you need to always trust me!"
Boom. Roasted.
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